sick and tired of part deuce?

sick and tired of part deuce?

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This is gonna to be partially a rant and 100% on what I feel
1st a history
On July 29th 2000 I moved to Portland Oregon,I found a job and was working and 7 or 8 months into my job I started to have "Issues"Such as going to pee too much and way too often this went on until my lower back started to hurting so bad I couldnt stand it anymore,I had emphasis on had Kaiser permanate(they sux).I went into the doc there after having to wait 3 more weeks,and registered a blood sugar of over 700.He promptly gave me a 1ac and it was a 18,which was the highest he said he ever seen before and was surprised that I did not stroke out.I was 34 at the time..that sentance freaked me out like it should have he started me on metformin and glubueride,I had multiple side effects from the drugs plus the "poos" I was a shipping/Receiving person and the only cdl holder so was the delivery driver too.I had multiple "accidents" and I am not talking truck/car ones,i mean the more embarassing kind,and had to make side trips home for a shower and a change of clothes,this of course altered how long it took me to go and get back to work,I am a guy I am not gonna to tell women I poo'ed on myself and had to go.Plus my supervisor hated me treated me like a child.So,forturately the 1st economic turn down in 2002 happened and I was laid off in October..I completely went with out meds for 7 months as I could not afford any.I made do by taking what I had once a day IE instead of 1000 mg metformin x2 a day it was 500mb 1x a day and instead of 20mg gluberide a day it was 5mg 1x dayand that was how it went until i got the job I currently have..I took kaiser back as soon as i could...BIG MISTAKE, my 1ac was about the same as it was when I was first in there the 1st time.But this time I was armed,I had researched drugs and I asked the doctor why cant I have other drugs,I was told there was no other drugs and it was the met or gluberide.I argued with him and he said oh well your stuck with me or another kaiser doctor so deal with it..I did until the next open enrollment and I went with the blue cross plan my work offered..I went to see a real doctor he put me on avament,i showed excellent improvment i got to a 7.0 and then the plant that made it was shut down,me switched me to another drug and I went right back up to 11.0..then he referred me to a endocrinologist and i got on byetta which did some good got to a 8 and then it stopped improving,actually climbing back up to a 13.I have tried novolin,lantus and a couple other drugs with no real improvment,I have been getting dibilating pain in my feet and my blood sugar now swings wildly,I used over 300 hours of my family leave because I do not feel good and dont want to do anything other then vegatate,I test my sugar and see its over 300 and say oh well looks like another stay home day...I know that is also a bit a depression in there my primary care has given me the generic of wellbutrin xl,which i took for 2 months with zero results,I know that it doesnt take away the pain but,it didnt even lighten the mood and I talked often of ending it,how serious I was,I dont know,but,I decided I better get off that incase i decided it was "the right thing to do".I can not miss any more time away from my work,in fear of losing the job,which now has become that much more important since my wife has had pulmary emboli(blood clots) in her legs and lungs she spend 18 days in the hospital and was close to death at one point,she hasnt been able to work in 11 months and been on long term disability since feb 2009.She will loose her job in Feb and will be forced on too SSI at that point,with 2 mortgages I will be barely able to cover all the bills on her SSI and my full 80 check,not allowing me to miss anytime..
My current doc is supposed to see me every 3-4 months but,the last 4 appts It was 6-8 months because they would always cancel it.Not one time did he check my feet,I haven mentioned my feet hurt and a couple times i came directly from work and they were totally swollen and so were my arms as my watch band was engraved on my arm at the point.Some will say switch doctors.Thats not as simple as it sounds my work requires a FMLA form filled out,and this doc has filled it out in a way that allows me to have the time off like i mentioned above,I am worried that another doc will not fill out the form saying I can miss time if my sugars are high and I am not feeling good.So,I am in a bind,also,I have been told there are no other docs in my city.
So,I am sure some here will say you need to exercise,well,try doing that when you live in a 1.5 hour commute,work on cement and on my feet all day,at the end of the day I walk like a 90 year old man who is on a walker and my feet hurt so bad that I can barely keep my foot on the pedal of my car on the way home.
SO,I am sick of all of this.I am sick of feeling sick.I am sick of being ingored when I am sick and sore and hurting.I am sick of people telling me well my XXXX has it and doesnt have the problems you have so you must be faking it just to stay home.I am just sick of it all.

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sick of this part 2
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Have you tried Insulin?
I was in your boat too with a Doc that was much more into the comp then me
Thank god I have meens other then work ins
I am now on the pump and I run very good # now
Been there with all the stress and know how it is to have every thing depending on you
I wish you the best
Harlen
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yea i was on novolin and lantus,had to switch to humilin R and N (because of costs)with so so results,I either put too little insuln in or too much and get to shaking and all the negatives from a 35 bs level reading.where you shove anything and everything in your blind attempt to get it raised up.
I dont know what else to do,my wife cant cook anymore she is on oxygen and a walker and cant stand for more then 5 mins and if she stands for 10 or more mins she is totally exhausted,something to do with hypoxia and the right side of her heart.I leave home at 6am and dont get home to 6pm and I have resorted back to bad food choices,which has made both our conditions worse because she cant have junkie food and she cant take vitamins(because of blood thinners) so she needs salads to get her vitamins and i need to eat right,I am a meat person,I havent found a salad that i can eat yet unless it is doused in cheese and dressing..I know alot of my problem is me,but,i am so sick of everything.I almost wish i would have never posted this thread but,maybe someone has had the same problem and a possible solution.
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moving this over to the type 2 forum as more people see that forum
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Seems like we all have a cross to bear, some more than others. Solutions aren't easy. A lot of times it just takes what you have and work with it.
Your profile says you are looking for help.....it would probably be best if you told us what kind of help you want. It appears you have tried many things, like insulin that would help you more than anything and you say it didn't work. You need to really look into why it didn't, that may be your answer.
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I find as a Type 2 much of this disease is trial and error. I take Metformin ( 2550 mg) but I have had to change my diet to a very low carb diet. I have got my numbers down close to normal but I'm eating only 10-15 carbs for most meals. When I start to eat carbs like bread or potatoes or pasta my numbers will spike. I finally came to the conclusion I need to change the way I eat for life in order to control my diabetes only with meds. The higher your numbers are the more damage you may be doing internally. That is why I eat low carb to avoid complications. As far as the swelling of your hands and feet that may be due to higher blood pressure. Do you check you blood pressure at home, often? You may want to discuss that with your doctor. Many diabetics take meds for blood pressure. The reason docs check our feet at every visit is to test for circulation and check to see if we have any cuts that are slow healing. All these things could lead to infections and amputation.
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Hootchild I feel your pain when numbers are high its seems like not much good is happening. It just seems like it keeps building. A lot has to do with carb intake, I know if I eat more than 20 carbs I am going to spike its a given for me. If I go off course and eat more carbs my bs goes nuts. I did damage 25 yrs ago by having 300 to 400 bs I guess the reason was just I didnt have a clue. There was no internet then, my doc was about uselesss and it was a real struggle I finally gave into insulin after my first year but by that time and the fact most likely I was a diabetic for a very long time before I was . All I can say is I had to take control, I dont know what it will take for you but I do hear what your saying and feel your pain.
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jeane,
I am on atanol and atacand for my blood pressure,I am on a total of 15 drugs total,i have a cheapie wrist blood pressure machine but often have the nurse at my work check it,its normally not too bad,unless I am upset about something.Furball,I cant seem to loose weight at all,I am soooo tired and sore when i get home i am in bed by 7pm which is at most 1.5hrs after i get home and i am up at 4 to get ready for work which i have to leave by 6 to get there on time.
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Originally Posted by hootchlid jeane,
I am on atanol and atacand for my blood pressure,I am on a total of 15 drugs total,i have a cheapie wrist blood pressure machine but often have the nurse at my work check it,its normally not too bad,unless I am upset about something.Furball,I cant seem to loose weight at all,I am soooo tired and sore when i get home i am in bed by 7pm which is at most 1.5hrs after i get home and i am up at 4 to get ready for work which i have to leave by 6 to get there on time. Have you started counting how many actual gr of carbs you eat per meal. Many times high carbs plus high bs make us tired, hurt all over and give us neuropathy that sounds like what you could have in your feet.
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nope furball.I tried eating more healthy before,it sounds like excuses so,i wont type them.I am a dairy product drinker and eater,I can not and will not give up milk.I am sorry.Wrong,I am not sorry about that.If a glass of milk and cheese kills me it does.I will not stop drinking milk.I am sorry I grew up poor and my mom died '80 and my dad was a drunk so me and my brother had to fend for ourselves which was hard with no money.We had no milk and bread in the house and rarely got a home cooked meal for supper that wasnt burnt otherwise it was pizza and the other fastfoods whatever the drunk came home with which wasnt much and was always cold..Once I got out of the Navy,I vowed to myself I would never ever ever not have milk and bread in the house I am to drink as much as I wanted,as kids we were told 1 cup a for 2 weeks because he was supposed to have the rest plus he needed his money for his beer.
I know this sounds radical buts something that still sits in my very core,there will be milk and dairy products in the house and I will have as much as I want.period.Call it whatever its the way its gonna to be,if it kills me..and it may very well,atleast I have lived longer then my mom who died when she was 35.I made it to 43 so far.I plan to live to 75..maybe longer hopefully.